Ridiculous laughing

Someone  very close to me said I had lost my sense of humor. I was hurt naturally. Especially since it came from a friend who is very dear to me. He has said some rather painful remarks of late, so I finally got the courage to point it out and to come clean with how I felt.

His reply , " I can't joke with you anymore. You have no more sense of humor"

 I asked him to put himself in my shoes. He said he did.

I told him I guess we are built differently.

That's the test of friendship I guess. Understanding each other's strengths and weaknesses. And embracing the flaws of one another. 

Ever since the recent hoorah surrounding my private life, I have been extra careful with my words, actions and thoughts.  I live by, "do unto others, what you want to be done upon you".

When asked for a comment, I had none to offer. Only because, as I always say, there is always two sides of the coin. In this case, there are three. 

I will let God lay the path of the journey I am to walk on. Faith is all I have left.

So going back to what that friend of mine said, I don't think I have lost my sense of humor. I think I am more sensitive to remarks  made, only because of my recent predicament. 

Rediscovering myself through the ways of our Maker has made me evidently a lot more quieter. Sombre. Intuitive.

I guess I am no longer the fun Daphne everyone remembers.

So yea...I guess I am a bore.

Just like how I have found my true friends during these times of uncertainty, I know I might have to let go of those who can't understand the new me. Or else we will just continue to hurt each other. And I don't want that. Not anymore.

I still laugh. I just laugh at positive jokes. Of beautiful memories. Like the sight of Bel trying to carry the brand new Fabric softner around the house. She is so adorable.

I can't laugh to lewd jokes. Or gossipy news. I don't want to laugh at other people's misfortunes. I don't find happiness talking bad about others. I don't find joy in painful remarks. 

Life is too short. I have made my share of mistakes in the past. But it is never too late to be a better person.